dazed and confused..

I finally made it to my FS appointment. It was a long day waiting for the clock to tick round to 3:45pm but it got there eventually.

Get into the Dr's office and he takes a look at my file. And the initial conversation went something like this.....

'Ah you had the HyCoSy done?' 

'Yup-I have the results here'
'No they sent them to me...yes all ok. Hmm..you had the AMH blood test too.'
-silence as he looks at results on his computer screen-
'Oh..well there's the problem.'
-my heart starts pounding in my chest as I wait for him to elaborate-
'Your AMH is 40.3.' 
'Is that bad??????' -while internalising a mini freak out-
'Levels under 30 are normal. When they go above this it indicates Polycystic Ovary Syndrome.'

You could have knocked me over with a feather. I was gobsmacked. 
I couldn't have PCOS. I don't have signs or symptoms of PCOS. 
WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON?!?!?!?!?!?!?

I sorta half tuned out after he said PCOS. I was in shock (still am). The appointment was very quick from that point. 

He has prescribed me Metaformin and Letrozole. From what I can gather Letrozole is like Clomid. As he wanted me to start these today he rushed me off to a chemist (hence I was in and out of his office in 15 mins as the chemist that he knew stocked the Letrozole was a good 20 mins away). He also sent me for a blood test to look at male hormones or something like that.

In the quick time I had with the FS, I was told to come back on CD14 (well actually I go back CD16 as CD14 is on the weekend) so he could do an ultrasound and see what my ovaries are doing once the drugs are in my system. If they don't respond how they should or whatever, then I will most likely have to get a laparoscopy (plus some other stuff but I cannot for the life of me remember what was said) done. I don't know where we go from that though...

I rushed down to the chemist before they closed to collect my scripts. Another shock to be had there as the Letrozole cost me $195!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So with the Metaformin I spent over $200 at the chemist...Not impressed if this will be a monthly expensive.

I also managed to get my BT done as there was a QML right next door to the chemist as luck would have it. 


So now I start these drugs I suppose...and count down the days until my next appointment with the doctor on the 12th July. And inbetween DH and I need to have sex on CD12, 14 & 16 according to the doctor..this should be no problem this month as DH arrives home CD10 and leaves on CD16. CD16 is also the day of my appointment, so depending what time he has to leave he might even be able to come with me for that...

So my TTC girls are all excited for me as I have a 'diagnosis' and a way forward. 


I'm not at that point yet. I still can't believe the diagnosis of PCOS. It just seems so random. It doesn't seem to fit. Why the hell didn't my body give me some indication so this was picked up months ago???? Then perhaps it would have been dealt with by now and I could be pregnant.


I think it was overlooked because I had been pregnant before...perhaps if I had not of been then they would have ruled out the possibility of PCOS earlier on (like maybe when I went and saw my GP and had the stack of BTs done). 


I'm angry at my body for not giving me a sign. But I'm also angry at the doctors because surely this could have been picked up sooner????????? 


FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK. 


This is doing my head in.