I'm Broken

Saturday, March 26, 2011

I know I should have come and updated about my appointment yesterday but I was so tired by the time I got home that I just figured I would do it today. However, today I have gotten some news that has completely over shadowed how happy and hopeful I was feeling (so yes in a nut shell it was a good appointment) and cannot even fathom the words to write. I have spent the evening crying and called DH for some support, however this didn't happen and instead I was hit with 'get over it' and 'stop being selfish' before he hung up on me. So for now I will share with you this song, which pretty much sums me up right now.

7 comments:

Gurlee said...

Oh no! Whenever you are ready to share, we are here. (((hugs)))

Baby Hopes said...

Oh my word... I'm so very sorry. Whatever it is that is breaking your heart, I hope that you find relief soon. In the meantime, I'm sending support, hugs, and prayers your way...

Amanda said...

I'm so sorry you're going through a hard time right now...((hugs))

Krista said...

Honey, I'm so glad to hear your appointment went well, but very sad to hear that something sad overshadowed it and that your hubby wasn't more understanding and kind. I'm sending you big hugs and hope that things get better soon!

New Year Mum said...

So sorry to hear that you've gotten some bad news and that you're feeling so low. My heart goes out to you. Love always xoxo

Whitney Anderson said...

Here from ICLW. I have to say that I think miscarrying only makes the jealously of pregnant women even worse. And, I just had my 4th miscarriage in February. It just gets harder to deal with my own emotions and deal with people that are pregnant. I just can't and don't and don't feel bad about it. Good luck with everything. =)

Krista said...

I think we can all relate to how you are feeling. Though I haven't had a miscarriage, I DO have plenty of friends who are currently planning for their baby, while I am planning my next fertility treatment. Is is not fair in any way, and those that fall pregnant easily don't understand what we go through and how much it hurts us to see others fall pregnant so easily while we struggle and struggle and struggle. I find it easier to "support from afar." While I would never just blow off my pregnant friends, I don't want to see them regularly.I do support them from afar by sending nice email messages and that kind of thing. Letting them know that I am thinking about them.
I think your husband reacted in the same way most husbands would in that situation. This is all just as frustrating to them, and yes...they want to fix it and can't, so they are frustrated. If I were in your shoes, I would rely more on the IF community for support and to understand how you are feeling. Men and women are just different, and I don't think you husband is ever going to say exactly the right thing, exactly what you want to hear, because frankly...you just feel different and think different and react to things different. Hang in there and keep venting away...we'll be here!