from my [sick] bed

I've been battling a cold since Saturday.

Sunday the cold won out and I stayed in bed ALL day. The only time I moved was to get food or go to the bathroom.

Monday I thought I had beaten the cold. I figured all that rest, freshly squeezed OJ and panadol had done the trick. I took it easy, but didn't confine myself to the bed and I even left the house for a few hours.

Today the damn cold has beaten me back down. My alarm went off (it's a work day) and I just couldn't muster the energy to get up and get moving. I figured it wouldn't hurt me to stay in bed another day instead of trying to push through it and go to work. I'd rather get better than run myself into the ground.

The guilt for me is hard to dodge. I feel like I am letting work down. I know I had lots of clients booked in today. I should be there. This is all self inflicted guilt though. I know that no one at work would make me feel bad for taking a sick day. In fact if I had of gone in today I probably would have been told by many of my colleagues to go home and rest and that I didn't look well (that's the trouble with working alongside nurses..they can tell when you are sick!). I probably would have been marched back out the door and escorted to my car and told not to come back until I was well.

So I guess this guilt is just something I need to work through. I keep reminding myself that it's not just me I need to think about anymore..there's a little human growing inside me that needs me to be healthy. That helps ease the guilt some...

My mum came round this morning with a natural concoction to help me fight this cold. Garlic, honey, cayenne pepper & apple cider vinegar...sounds revolting but actually doesn't taste too bad. Apparently it's good for coughs and also good for breaking up mucus and one of the ingredients is a natural antibiotic...so here's hoping it helps!

DH is home tomorrow for 2 weeks. Looking forward to seeing him..hopefully I'll be on the mend and won't share this lovely cold with him.