what I think may be CD1

So DH is in the air again and back to work. Hoping 7 days goes super quick and he'll be home again before I know it.

Terrible night last night. Poor DH was inundated with my crazy mood swings..I went from yelling to laughing to crying in about 5 minutes flat. DH didn't know what hit him!! And to top it off we had a massive fight at around 3am this morning over taking the dog out. It was his turn but he cracked the shits at me about it. Cue screaming match. Needless to say it ended in tears.. -MINE. Plus I ended up with a bruised shin..I ran into the coffee table in the dark. Didn't get any sympathy from DH though.

All was forgiven this morning. I think it's just one of those things. We always seem to have a fight the day he comes home or the day he leaves... Haven't figured out why yet!

I think today is CD1...had spotting...well more than spotting but it's not very heavy. See what it's like tomorrow and then I'll decide. Lots of horrible cramps though. Advil seems to be working a treat at the moment, so will keep it up. Perfect timing for work tomorrow...

So we are all on track for operation baby making in June!!!  

I am excited, but trying not to get my hopes up. Very hard to do!!

Thanks Shell for your AF dancing, and Is for threatening my uterus with a stick!

Sunday Sunday

I think AF is coming. Last night a browny tinged CM when I wiped. Today some beginnings of cramps...I'd say she will be here by morning.

This is the first time I have actually been glad she is coming... but I suppose it's because there's that chance of this new cycle being a 'shot'. Probably a 1 in a billion chance, but its a chance.

I hope my body decides to cooperate and gives us a baby... Surely we have waited long enough. I am getting a little bit excited about this impending cycle. Trying not to, as I know it will most likely end in a BFN and tears and then another trip to the FS. But despite that, I am quietly hopeful. I am not sure why...I suppose because I have had the HyCoSy done and the FS kept saying how lots of ladies fell pregnant after having this procedure. I think I have kept that in the back of my mind and now we may have a shot..it's coming to the front.

I even ordered some HPTs and sperm friendly lube from Oracle Fertility. Figure it doesn't hurt giving this lube a try. It's like pre seed, but cheaper. I have nothing to lose. What's another month at this point in time?!?

We went to some giant markets today which are about 40 minutes from home. I had never been before and couldn't get over just how BIG they were! Wow! Got some herbs to plant in pots, as some of mine have died. I am not much of a green thumb, but I keep trying!

Last night we ended up having friends round for dinner and then went bowling.

I suck!!!! But it was fun.

DH's last night home. 7 days goes by way too quick! I will drive him to the airport tomorrow afternoon. Hopefully the next 7 days while he is away will go just as quickly..and then it will be baby making time before we know it!!!

I have a beef pot roast in my slow cooker for dinner tonight...smells amazing!!

weekend ramblings

Sick of this dreary weather. It rained all last night, and though it has eased somewhat today, it's still miserable outside.

Last night was good. Went to a friends place for dinner, and I decided that DH would be the driver, so I could have some wine! Needless to say, I was a very happy girl by the time we got home last night!!

Slept in this morning which was well deserved after the busy days and late nights. Ended up heading down to one of the homemaker centres and looking at lounge suites. Our couch that we have does not fit in the lounge and we have to have the chaise separate from the rest of it, which is extremely annoying!! We have been umming and ahhing about a new couch since we moved in here over a year ago, so I think its about time we did something about it! Probably go back tomorrow and figure it out.

DH has now gone off fishing with a mate. He tries to squeeze in so much while he's home. Next time he's back he has already made plans for us to go camping! He also wants to go to the movies tonight...depends on when he gets home from fishing.

I've got butter chicken cooking in the slow cooker and it smells awesome. Can't wait for dinner tonight!

Nothing to report on the TTC front. AF should arrive in the next few days. I figure if she arrives by Monday, and if DH's roster stays the same, then we might have a shot at cycle #12...Guess I just have to wait and see what happens with AF. Knowing my luck my body will decide to screw me over again...

I'd just like to say that wine is awesome...especially Brown Brothers Moscato. Yum!

boys and their toys..

DH is still off playing mechanic... He has been round at his mates since about 9:30am and they still aren't done. This is the worst thing about being married to a mechanic...days can be spent waiting around wondering how long it will take him to 'help out' a mate with a car related task...'help out' means he does it while the mate stands around and watches.

When I last saw them they were both very greasy and thought they were almost done..something must not have gone to plan! Stupid cars...

In other annoyances, I think my computer is dying..or the screen is at least. It keep flickering pink.. I don't know what that means, but it's annoying and I am sure it is bound to cost me money...*sigh* It's over 2 years old so I suppose we've had a good run...perhaps now is the time to convince DH to buy me my own lap top...

It just better not die in the mean time, or I will be most upset!

the sounds of silence..

Our little FB group is silent. I have noticed that each week the chatter has died a little, and now it seems to have stopped. I think it's a combination of things...

My theory is that the UTD girls don't want to share too much incase it upsets the TTCers and the TTCers don't want to share too much incase it brings down the others...Very considerate of us all?!? Its that or perhaps we are drifting apart as our journies take very different twists and turns..I suppose it happens.

Makes me a little sad considering how much we have shared.

Went to an Intimo party last night at work. I'm not usually into these underwear parties, but this stuff was nice!! Ended up spending WAY more money than I thought as it's a little expensive, but once I tried on the bras-I was hooked. SO, SO COMFY!!!!!  I was amazed at how good they were...and when I put my old bra back on I noticed it even more. I also got a skirt which you can also wear as a top and a dress..very nice. Haven't told DH how much money I spent though!

A few more days with DH before he heads back to work. It's nice having him home and really boosts my mood.

bits and pieces

Feeling slightly better then yesterday. Her posts on FB have been pregnancy related ever since (which I knew would happen) so I need to find the 'hide' button until I feel ready to have that thrown in my face several times throughout the day.. (which may be never!)

DH is home and I am so glad. I got my hugs. He was exhausted yesterday so we didn't talk much in regard to the SILs news or TTC. Have talked a little with him this afternoon, but will delve deeper into these conversations over the next few days. He is still adament that if he's home next cycle then that will be it for us. I am not so optimistic...

On an up note, I have tomorrow off!!! Woohoo for 5 day weekends!! Apparantly I have too much flex time accrued, so I offered to take tomorrow off..haha! Nice to have an extra day with DH before he leaves again on Monday.

We are off to friends to watch the State of Origin tonight... I am not particularly keen on rugby, but going to catch up with friends is always nice.

Looking forward to a fun filled weekend. Even have a few bottles of wine in the fridge! Haha..I will be on the floor after a few glasses as its been a while since I drank!

On a sad note, one of my fellow TTCers Nani has decided it's time for a break. I can only imagine how hard this decision was to make, but hopefully it will give her time to recover, destress and bring some joy back in to her life.

My thoughts are with her and I'm sending her some love.

F$&@ it

The SIL has made her pregnancy annoucement on facebook, complete with photos of her BFP and scan.

For those of you who know the stories (yes stories-there is more than one..or perhaps it's a saga?!) about her, you will know what I have put up with over the years, and what type of person she is. And for those who don't, well to put it simply she does not like me.

I think it hurts more because:

1. She is such an awful person and it makes me wonder why she gets a baby when me and my lovely FB girls don't;

2. We have been TTC for what feels like forever.

So the status update came and it was like being punched in the stomach; I couldn't breathe. Then I realised there were photos and decided to punish myself even further and take a look. And then just to add insult to injury, she posts a big thing on DHs page saying he is 'officially' going to be an uncle and the god father?!!? WTF???????? News to me (and quite possibly to DH also). So now I am fuming and want to tell DH to tell her to piss off..is it just me or is it weird to have the uncle as a god parent??

Note she did not leave me a post saying I was going to be an aunty...LMAO. As if!!! Besides, I will only officially feel like an aunt if my little sister has kids.

I want to go off and have a cry but I am at work and there is no chance of finding any privacy here. Besides I don't want the questions that follow when people see you have been crying.

DH is home. Just got a message before. I'm glad. I needs massive amount of hugs right now.

new look me

Hair is done and looks fabulous!!!!

It's funny, I keep looking in the mirror and admiring myself.. Feeling a little vain!!!

I got some caramely coloured foils and had it cut as well. I am very happy with the results and know now why everyone was telling me that I would be addicted to colouring!!! I want more!!

Still no word on when DH will be home. I am beginning to get very frustrated. I am sure we will find out at the last minute (as per usual). How hard is it to be a little more organised?!?

Hoping to do some retail therapy tomorrow...Need some new winter stuff now that it's getting cooler.  Other then that, I think it's going to be a very boring weekend...

Oh, got some more old home movies to watch too! I was a very cute flower girl!!